two week wait

Well it is less than two weeks now until our wedding day. We have pretty much completed everything to prepare for it. Now we must cross our fingers it does not rain. Next week my parents arrive and we have to finish up on last minute preparations but pretty much we are ready. Nervous but ready. I am so excited to be marrying the love of my life. I have known from the beginning that I would spend my life with her.
In other news I am waiting for cycle day 1 to start birth control pills so that we can get started with the IVF. Really excited about this also.

Ecstatic

I am so ecstatic. I just got the results fsh 6.1 estrogen 581....Textbook as the nurse described it. Finally something went in our favor. Consult with our doctor next Tuesday to get final consents signed and insurance approval then we officially start IVF. So excited.

anxiously waiting

I had my blood drawn this morning for my estrogen and fsh level after completing the clomid last night. I am happy I am done with the clomid but I am anxiously waiting for the results this afternoon to see where my numbers are. I am excited to get this behind me but very nervous about the results. Fingers crossed for good numbers.

test, test and more test

Well I started the clomid challenge test last night. My estrogen level is finally back down. I finish the med on Sunday night and get labs on Monday. I am just crossing my fingers that the fsh and estrogen levels stay down. I am so worried. I am so close to starting IVF and have my heart set on it and if this fails I am going to be a mess.

weekend fun

This weekend we were able to accomplish some task that we had been wanting to get done. It was a much needed weekend of togetherness although it was spent hanging a new light fixture and doing yard work. J and I find that most of the time we make a good team in accomplishing task and working together. She is usually the one that really has the know how especially when it comes to indoor projects and I am usually her assistant...but it works. She learned most of her handyman tricks from helping her dad all through the years and now that he is no longer with us she is very thankful that she listened and learned from him. As far as outdoor projects went we only had Sunday to get this accomplished because it rained all day on Saturday. We were able to mow the lawn, do some pruning of the shrubs, and to clean out from around our pergola to get ready to plant some flowers and shrubs for the upcoming wedding since the ceremony will take place under the pergola.

On a different note I hope everyone had a wonderful mothers day. I will leave you with some pictures of our weekend projects.

wedding plans

We have officially set a date for our wedding. It will be June 19 at our home in our backyard. We are very excited. Ever since returning from vacation we have been planning for it. We have officially booked our JP which has already written our ceremony for us to view and critique, picked out and purchased our rings, ordered chairs, bought tables, and started to purchase items to decorate our pergola with so it will be beautiful for us to be wed under. We of course have also did our invites and have gotten a good return on our RSVP's around 40 people so far and we have set up our registry, and purchased clothing to wear...wow I am tired just from typing it all. Next week we have to purchase our license and start making our table centerpiece's for which we have purchased glass vases and will use sea shells, candles and sand. Oh and we have already booked our catering. We have many more things to do but it is all shaping up nicely.

starting again

Well we have officially started our ttc process again. I have to say it feels good to be starting again. We went last Wed for all of our blood work to start the IVF process...yes when I say we I mean J too. She had to have the standard test too ( HIV, Hepatitis etc) it is required by our Ivf clinic, whatever we humored them. Anyway they drew 12 vials of blood from me my god I don't think I have ever given that much blood. They also did another u/s just to check things out again. On Friday the clinic called to say that my estrogen level was too high (99) to start the clomid challenge test and they prescribed me provera to take for 7 days so that we could induce another menstrual cycle and hopefully my level would be down in order to start the CCT again to submit to the insurance company.
Today I went for a sonohysterogram. What fun that was. First of all she could not view my cervix well with the huge speculum she had so she kept moving it all around then she removed it and tried a smaller one then the first one again then the smaller and finally she found my cervix then she put the catheter in and inflated the balloon which induced major cramping and the were finally able to see my uterus but not well so the u/s tech told the NP to pull the catheter back a little so she could get a better view but she accidentally pulled it all the way out and we had to start the process over again from the beginning. Talk about cramping I had it big time but in the end they got really good views and everything was clear.
Tonight is my last night of taking the provera thank god because I have had hot flashes and mood swings like crazy. It has also affected my sleep..I feel very restless at night.
I just keep telling myself all this will be worth it one day when I have a precious baby in my arms. But the things we go through to get there.