Still Here

Yes I am still here. Sorry its been awhile. So much going on here. I don't know where to start.
Well the week we went on vacation in October my mom ended up really sick and in the hospital in Alabama so we cut it short (very short) we only stayed one night in P-town then we headed off to Alabama. We drove down (26 hours pretty much straight through except for 4 hours rest). We stayed there one week until she was well enough to come back with us so we could help take care of her until she fully recovered. She has been sick since she had surgery in July. She just could not bounce back from it. She had one complication after another and the doctors down there just could not seem to find out what the problem was. I brought her here and within one week she was back in intensive care. After 3 weeks in the hospital here and lots of wonderful doctors and nurses she is finally well and is currently in rehab doing physical therapy in order to get strong again to walk unassisted and to be able to do activities of daily living again. It has been a long road but I think she will be fine now.

As far as the pregnancy goes I am now 10 1/2 weeks. The only symptoms I have had so far is a little nausea and feeling very tired (almost to the point of exhaustion at times). We have had one ultrasound at 7 weeks and we got to hear the beautiful heartbeat. And we had one at 9 weeks due to me having some spotting which was very scary but turned out to be nothing. We were released from our fertility clinic at 7 weeks and are now with our Ob/midwife group. I got to stop the progesterone inserts this week because my level was 43. I was happy about that because I feel those made me more moody and tired. I go day to day still in disbelief of the fact that we are finally pregnant and I have a little baby inside me. Each time I get to look at that u/s screen and see it and hear the heartbeat I just amazed and in love. We go for our next u/s Dec 1 and we can't wait.

We came up with a name that we will use to refer to the baby on the blog and actually it is what we use all the time to refer the baby. It is Wynken. The way we came up with this name was when we first went for the u/s to see how many eggs we had for retrieval for the IVF and we found out that we had 3. So we named them Wynken, Blynken, and Nod from the book by Eugene Field. Then we found out that only one survived fertilization so we stuck with Wynken and ever since that is what we have called it. So Wynken it is. J even went out and bought the book for the baby. So cute.

Congratulations to those that have recently gave birth to those beautiful babies. I hope I get time soon to comment.

rising

Fridays Beta Hcg 601. Progesterone 43.15. Numbers rising nicely. Back in on Tuesday for more blood work. We are officially on vacation and are heading down to P-town for a week yay.

Excited

Just got the call from the nurse. Beta #1 is 188. I am happy. Just hoping it all continues to go well. I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant I just keep repeating it...it sounds so good to say.

In disbelief

Today I woke up with a feeling of sadness and gloom. I felt as if I would never get pregnant and that all hope was lost. J recognized this and felt sorry for me and in trying to comfort me she went and got a hpt for me to do. Guess what.....it says BFP. I looked at it while she was sitting on the edge of the tub and I calmly said to her it says pregnant and I dont think she quite understood until the second time I said it with a loud and excited voice. She got up and started to hug me and we both just cried tears of joy. We still are in disbelief but here's the proof...

Thanks

Thanks for all the nice comments. It really helps during this tww to know I have people rooting for me and cheering me on. That is one of the reasons I started this blog was for support from people who are going through or have been through the same thing. Its nice to know you guys are out there.
On another note. I am using the endometrium tablets this time for the progesterone. I really like these much better than those suppositories they do not seem to be as messy and much easier to insert since you use an applicator. Just an fyi for anyone who is going through this.
In the mean time we are just keeping busy with work and other things to pass the time.

transfer

They called late yesterday afternoon to say that I have 2 embryos out of the 3 eggs they retrieved on Sunday. The RE wanted to do the transfer today. Which would make it a 2 day transfer instead of the 3 day as planned. So we arrived today at 12 noon for the transfer. We soon found out from the doctor that we have only one embryo out of the 2 that made it to transfer. The one that made it is of good quality. It has 4 cells which is the usual number for day two and has no fragments. The ultrasound tech gave us a copy of the picture to take with us. I really have mixed emotions about the whole thing but I am trying to remain positive. Everything is out of our hands now so all we can do is wait the long two week wait. In the mean time I am going to try to stay busy. We will find out our results a few days before we are due to leave for our week long vacation/honeymoon in P-town so hopefully we will get good news. If not we will definitely need some time away to re-group and support one another. Keeping our fingers crossed and trying to stay positive.

retrieval

Yesterday was our retrieval. I am anxious because we had 3 follicles that were 19, 20, and 21 and out of those we got 3 eggs. I am disappointed we did not get more but I have to settle with what we got. Now I am waiting to find out if they fertilize and if so what will be the quality. I will return on Wednesday if all goes well for the transfer.
Everything went well yesterday as far as the procedure went. I was nervous due to the fact that I have never had anesthesia before. J was my rock and she supported me through it all. Man I have to tell you though that is some good sleep. All I remember is walking into the OR and lying down on the bed with the stirrups and putting my legs up and the nurse telling me that the anesthesiologist was putting some medications in my IV now and that she was going to put a blood pressure cuff on my arm and the next thing I know I am in recovery with J by my side. It all went so fast. The rest of the day was spent sleeping and lying around doing nothing but hydrating myself.